2. Have you ever had your eyes covered.

Loss of vision is frightening. I like to see the world, but one of the major ways I dealt with the raping was to have closed eyes. Then it was like I had to close my eyes to the world as a way to never see the rape and the too muchness of it. Then I was blind. Then I was blind from the world & everything in it. When I open my mind to the truth I can see the world again. I have to sit knowing about all the pain & hurt; but I see the river, the trees, the sky, a pale blue building. The building on the river is the color of a robin egg and I begin to cry.
The crying reminds me of wanting to tell you why I needed these new glasses- so I could cry this much. It was impossible with the contact lenses.