artconstellation: work in progress

August 11, 2010

work in progress

Running to my fear.

Posted by Jenny Sawle at 11:46 AM

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ARTCONSTELLATION My name is Jenny Sawle. I'm a 35 year old artist. I survived 25 years of incest & abuse. I have DID. I've been in therapy for almost 10 years & just completed my MFA. These are my personal recollections & feelings. To this day my entire family denies that my recollections are true.

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