In the co-op of my mind. Constant cyclist. The Constellation responds to The People.

Three title post. Wow. Dissociate much? Lol.

I think that may be the first time I have ever put an 'LOL' on this blog. And so to that I will add an: OMG.

Ok, first of all I want to say: Jessieh posted something on her blog. Yeah. She was a little distracted I guess with all of that graduating from high school and getting into a bunch of great colleges thing... Not to mention that pesky DID. ;) Anyway- I check her blog often and today there is a good poem there. Her blog is HERE. And she put a great tag on the post that reads: "I love you Jenny. Let's go sailing away from scissors." And to that I say: Yes. I agree. I love you Jessieh.
We both recently read "The Magic Daughter: A Memoir of Living with Multiple Personality Disorder" and I think both of our brains have been... um... even more volcanic than usual. But mostly in a good way.

I have been writing more and that makes EVERYTHING A THOUSAND TIMES BETTER. The more I write AND THE MORE I ACKNOWLEDGE THE DIFFERENT WAYS OF THINKING THAT I HAVE: THE BETTER ALL OF ME FEELS.
Fabulous.
Often it is hard to write and pay attention to my own thoughts... but I am working on it. I am getting better at listening to the different ways of my thinking and EVERYTHING is going better because of that.

And finally: Biking. I went on another big ride today. I am a complete biking convert/junkie. Today I felt anxious and I was thinking about hurting myself and I WENT BIKING INSTEAD. That is basically wonderful. I am riding a lot and looking at bikes and bikers everywhere I go. It is really good. I have two good friends who have both been helping me really get going on the biking and that has been a huge help. There are so many things I am loving about biking... I will have to make a list of it. :)

Tomorrow I am going to draw a little in the morning and then I go to my art therapy group. I am looking forward to that. I did not take my camera last week, but I am going to take it tomorrow (I left the paintings that I made there.... because they are emotionally very hard and it was nice to have them be in some other place). Anyway- I will post images of drawings soon.

I am getting better. And I am drawing and biking and knitting and listening to music (a little, anyway) and oh-thank-god-it feels-so good to-start-to.... to not hate myself.