I was going to title this post "Something wonderful" but when I clicked to my blog page to log in and saw again the photo of myself laughing and smiling and kissing Stefano on his cheek I thought that this 'news' is not just a great thing; it is another great thing. And what is the great thing?... Well, I just had my therapy over Skype and I am in that really hard place where I feel very sad but I know it is for the better.... The difficult pain of the recovery; the healing. Anyway- I don't feel like I can go into what I want to explain- I feel more like I want to call Stefano at work to hear his voice for a minute and then go and find Apple and kiss and hug her- probably cry into her fur. Then I want to go outside.
So I will explain tomorrow about the good thing that has happened. I will say for now that it sure is hard to really know now about the pain that I survived in the past which was too much for me to tolerate knowing about then. It is really hard. And really really fucking sad. But not impossible.
Tomorrow I will write about the good thing that has happened. Right now I have too many tears in my eyes to type anyway. And right now I need to go and call Stefano. And then go find that furry little Apple.