One home wanted.

It is raining here right now and I am in Stefano's study with his little Apple. She is on her armchair and snoring like hell. We had a great walk this morning and luckily the bad weather held off until this afternoon. Stefano does not think of the rain as bad weather though- he says it is "labrador weather". So tonight we will walk the little Apple in the rain.
I have been drawing more and I will start posting images of my work again soon. I usually draw during the afternoons while Stefano is still at work.
I am having a hard time writing this post because my brain feels all over the place. I am already worried about leaving here but I am trying hard not to think about it because I still have 3.5 weeks here. I love being here with Stefano but it is strange then because my brain gets this crazy idea that I can tolerate knowing (and/or feeling) more of the past so then there is that to deal with and that is terribly hard. I also really miss Lloyd and Winston. I don't know what Stefano and I are going to do when the 3.5 weeks are gone and we have to figure out how/when I can be here again. I want to be here permanently with him and I want to bring Lloydykins and Winston with me.
I need Stefano, Apple, Lloyd, Winston and I to be all together in the same place.