March 23, 2008
You can put bunny ears on a wolf but it does not a bunny make.
I have been alone all day. I feel like I have hardly recovered from my Friday therapy session and I go again tomorrow. It is bad when I am anxious about therapy on a Sunday starting before noon. It usually means it will be a long night. I hope I am wrong today. I have spent the entire day doing cleaning and organizing to get ready to go to Italy. (Only 8 more days.) The one thing that has made me feel better today is the thought of being with Stefano soon. But... I feel nauseous about my therapy. I am worried about having enough money for the trip or even for getting ready for it. AND I feel sad about being alone on Easter. I keep trying to tell myself that I am lucky; that I have wonderful people in my life who love me, I have a house to stay in, food to eat, Lloyd and Winston... But I feel like today- no matter which way I look at it- things just look really difficult.